Had a very short talk with sweet girl a few hours back. During the talk, she reminds me the feeling of being cared for. Ever since we got together, I literally forgot that kind of feeling. She made me look back and I realised that all this while, I am the one showing love and care, yet not receiving any back. It actually made me feeling very sad now. I know this posts is very random, but still I can't control it. I felt very neglected all of a sudden. Even though we have been spending quite amount of time together for the past few months, but till now I can't feel any care from you. Sometimes I just wonder if you really care and love... Maybe you did just that I couldn't feel it; or you didn't...



A friend told me this "If you truly love someone, you will do any thing for them and you will never ask anything in return from them." This sentence is true, BUT only to a certain extend. Yes, I love you and I have done so many things for you. But at times, I just felt hurt by the way you treat me. Some times when I talked to you, you would just give me a sarcastic remark. All I could do is just give you a silly smile... You can make me wait for you while I can't cause you will start grumbling how long I made you waited... You can talk to me with only "...", while I can't cause you will start thinking that I don't want to talk to you or see you etc.... When you're sick, I can stay up all night and go over to your place early in the morning to look after you, or even staying till late night coaxing you to sleep. While I was having bad cramps and was in pain, you told me to go get ice-creams... And even looking after you while I'm sick badly myself... You know that I care for you so much and always worrying for you, yet you could still skip meals, eating and drinking all kinds of things, telling me how much you wanna smoke, etc...

Up till now I can still tell that you have no idea what you could do to hurt me, making me sad. Some times I just wished that you could really show more care, treat me better and most importantly stop doing all those things which is bad for you... But I doubt you will ever listen at all... I just feel like crying now... Sighs...



JW, FUCKING WAKE UP PLEASE!!! YOU GOTTA CONCENTRATE ON P1 NOW! *SLAPS*



Sweet girl, I love you